Remind me to never take pictures
Lately, I've been on this constant up and down rollercoaster of emotions. My mind has been on constantly without stopping the thoughts and I feel like I have a million thoughts per second. The title to this post comes from the many thoughts that I wish I could verbalize but it's definitely something that I find very selfish of myself. When spending quality time with people and they want to take pictures, I feel an obligation to take pictures even though I know I will hate the pictures in the end. My insecurities with my body have been on constantly for the past year and into this new year I feel as if the stress from all my thinking is taking a large toll on me mentally. I'm constantly thinking, does this make me look fat? I wonder if everyone else can see all of my rolls as well? Is my working out even worth it? Can people see that I'm trying to get fit? My fear of judgement and rejection keeps getting more apparent to me as I am trying to fit these thoughts away b